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how do people come up with these dope websites anyways??
i've been doin web dev stuff ever since i was a kid, running my own phpbb2 boards and whatnot. i found myself helping to run an avatar community (much in the same vein as Gaia Online), mainly fixing up broken php scripts and css, both of which i knew nothing about. that community crumbled right after it launched, and after a handful of other starter forums, i finally decided to do it myself. sometimes i look back at those moments and wish i had worked just a little harder at it. i ended up dropping my own project due to burnout, and didn't start coding again until a few years later.
nowadays i code for fun, when i have something i wanna automate, or something i wanna create that i think would be interesting or neat. adhd kinda means that i don't get a ton of 'focus time', which means that i dabble in a bunch of never-finished projects to keep busy, but that's perfectly okay with me. a lot of what i code is all about clean simplicity; its sort of a reflection of how my head works. complicated topics or subject matter can overwhelm me or give me anxiety until i break it down into its building blocks and then piece it back together. once i do that, i can handle the subject easily, but finding the time or focus to do that becomes increasingly harder as i work more and handle the obligations i have in my life. no idea why i'm rambling about that.
i'm really envious of people who have incredibly vibrant or abstract personal sites. every time i stumble upon one, i feel a sense of awe; its something that i couldn't do even if i tried. my head just isn't wired correctly to make art pieces like that. i'm not trying to put myself down or anything, i like the things i make too and i'm proud of 'em, but sometimes i can't help but feel dumbstruck by how creative so many people are. the internet is super cool, even now.
anyways, uh, meow~